It took me 5 days to figure this out,

although i still can't explain the different mix,

i guess what i'm going to do is selfish,

i want to protect myself from the unneccesary challenges,

even tho' i had a glimmer of hope of positiveness,

but i guess i knew all along that this will be the outcome,

now i choose to sink no further and be dislusion,

thus i will live by the choice i made,

sorry.